I Was Right

My last post seems to have sparked concerns in the wrong direction so consider this a clarification if not a retraction. My posts have always retained a realistic yet hopeful note, and this truly reflects my default setting. However, I do intend to present the significant events in my life in all honesty, as I fight my way through the changing narratives. As much as I fall dangerously close to this category of persons, I do tire of the ever-optimistic stance from others on occasion. In addition, I don’t want to present my struggles only after I’ve emerged stronger and better. This explains the unfiltered, emotionally-driven post from this morning.

I concluded that post damning myself for my relentless hope, as though it would be the end of me. On the contrary, events have transpired since that post and these new developments have resolved matters quite favourably, indicating to me once again that there must be infinite ways for any situation, no matter the scale or depth of despair it presents, to be redeemed.

To paraphrase my earlier sentiments with equal conviction:
Fuck, I DO see it! I was right again!

Thank you for the comments and concerns, the support was vital and appreciated.


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3 Responses to I Was Right

  1. Julia says:

    Ok , I knew you weren’t the kind to fall into dispare and stay there. Just know that there are us in Ontario who care.

  2. josh barkey says:

    I accept your apology (you were apologizing, right? :)

    There is a sense in which you were right – people are selfish, and what they look for in a blog (and from real-life peoples) is wit, entertainment, etc. What they (we) want is for other people to validate OUR stories, and make OUR lives more interesting – to givegivegive to US, first and foremost.

    But people are a mix, and when they chips are down, they also know a little bit about love, and are capable of giving it despite themselves. I don’t know you well enough (nor live near enough) than to do much more than appreciate your humor and flashes of wisdom. If I had been there yesterday, however, I want you to know that my response would have been to tell you to shut up – and then to give you a hug.

  3. josh barkey says:

    Also, an awesome quote from Dorothy Day:

    “Even the best of human love is filled with self-seeking. To work to increase our love for God and for our fellow man (and the two must go hand in hand), this is a lifetime job. We are never going to be finished.

    Love and ever more love is the only solution to every problem that comes up. If we love each other enough, we will bear each other’s faults and burdens. If we love enough, we are going to light that fire in the hearts of others. And it is love that will burn out the sins and hatreds that sadden us. It is love that will make us want to do great things for each other. No sacrifice and no suffering will then seem too much.

    Yes, I see only too clearly how bad people are. I wish I did not see it so. It is my own sins that give me such clarity. If I did not bear the scars of so many sins to dim my sight and dull my capacity for love and joy, then I would see Christ more clearly in you all.

    I cannot worry much about your sins and miseries when I have so many of my own. I can only love you all, poor fellow travelers, fellow sufferers. I do not want to add one least straw to the burden you already carry. My prayer from day to day is that God will so enlarge my heart that I will see you all, and live with you all, in His love.”

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